All posts filed under: Creativity

Art as Meditation

I live in a near constant state of restlessness. Always occupied with something, anything, but unable to focus on any one activity for too long. Only a few idle seconds pass by before I’m on my phone, tumbling down a social media rabbit hole. Some nights, I find myself scrolling until the wee hours, soaking my face in blue light until I pass out from screen exhaustion, because lying there in the still, quiet darkness is too unnerving. I used to look forward to that sweet spot between lights out and slumber, time that I once used for ideating, daydreaming. These days, I feel overpowered by my own mind, as it relives past trauma or rehearses future devastation, refusing to anchor in the present moment.  The other week, I drew for the first time in months. I felt called to it that day, almost like a craving: an instinct deep in my gut told me that an art session would make me feel better. “Better” as in calm, relaxed, and present. I could best describe my mood …

Writing with Intention

Writing has felt especially difficult lately. The older I get and the more I learn about the world, the more responsibility I feel as a writer to use my skill for public good. Each time I sit down at my computer, I wonder, what’s the point of this? What am I contributing to society, by writing about my life? Why do I write, anyway? More often than not, I come out of these sessions with a whole lot of anxiety and a blank page. Turns out, the pressure to change the world within the margins of a Microsoft Word document is rather…daunting.  In his famous essay, “Why I Write,” George Orwell (known for Animal Farm and 1984—admittedly, books I still haven’t read) outlines what he believes to be the four primary motives for writing: sheer egoism, aesthetic enthusiasm, historical impulse, and political purpose. It is this final motive, political purpose, that I’m reckoning with, one which Orwell describes as follows:   “Desire to push the world in a certain direction, to alter other people’s idea of the …